i cannot pinpoint the exact day and date when i came to faith in christ. one day “i see men like trees, walking;” then days, months, and years later, i “saw everyone clearly,” mk.8.22-25
i was a nominal roman catholic. i attended mass — rarely. i had a vague fear of graven images, and priests; i respected — and was scared of — them. that’s all. i have repented, have turned from idols (and priests) to serve the living and true God.
the turning point in my life was brought about by my drug addiction. i found no purpose in life, i was “without hope, and without God in the world.” drug addiction gave meaning to my life — a way out.
my drug addiction started when i was in junior high school (3rd year,) and continued into my second year in college. things were bad. i (then) took an indefinite leave of absence from my studies, stayed home, and only got worse. until one day, i asked my mother to take me to “rehab”. i got better after that.
a year later, when i returned to school to resume my college education, my elder sister, (already a christian, and a member of a campus local church,) invited me to attend their sunday service. from that time onward, i never missed a sunday service.
one night, i was alone in the boarding house where i stayed with my sister; having read psalm 51, i sincerely asked the Lord to come into my heart, to cleanse me, acknowledging my heart was full of sin; this act or “inner motion” (as i refer to it) was reminiscent of a song we sang in arminian bible studies i’ve attended years ago — “let jesus come into your heart.” that night. maybe. he did.
this is a faithful saying, worthy of all acceptance: christ jesus came into the world to save sinners — of whom i am the chief!